I’m so happy with my life right now, I’m excited to turn everything around and pay off my debt, get health insurance and finish my degree. I’m excited to be financially stable. I’ve been struggling for so long and I feel like I’ve been treading water and getting nowhere fast. I love spending time with my family and I love having down time to just focus on myself and what I want out of life. I’m enjoying my time off from work (but at the same time I’m constantly on the look out for a job thats the right fit for me). I applied to a nearby college so i can transfer for the fall semester (I’m currently still taking online classes at TCC for the rest of this semester). I filled out a medicaid application today and hopefully I can get the ball rolling on my health insurance so I can start taking my MS meds again (along with countless other meds I need for my ADHD, anxiety, etc.) and start feeling healthier. I’ve been eating lighter, and I’ve been trying to be as active as possible by getting back into playing softball and riding my bike down the back roads at the house. I’m settled into my bedroom (which is my biological dad’s childhood bedroom - its crazy how living in it makes me feel close to him and really distant at the same time) and I am slowly decorating the other rooms on my floor of the house as well (I’m lucky to have three rooms and two bathrooms to myself here to do with as I please!) Speaking of my biological father, I’ve seen him twice since I’ve been here and have barely spoken to him. Everyone keeps asking me questions about him and I’m never sure how to respond because we aren’t close at all - we’ve basically been estranged since I graduated high school. I’m hoping to maybe develop some sort of relationship with him, although I don’t really expect anything huge. I’m planning on taking up sewing as a hobby, and hoping to start making some of my own dresses and things like that. My grandmother has a few sewing machines and said she’d teach me the basics. I finally feel like I’m home. Growing up, I’ve always loved living up north and enjoyed my friends and family up there. However, when I come down here things just feel… right. ATV’s, bonfires, fishing, country music… all of it. I know that when I get settled I’ll start missing all of the things I’ve grown up with - stores right up the street, all of my friends close by, trips to richmond, my dad and my sister - but I have more than enough here to remind me why I love it here so much. I’m hoping this time things will be different and I’ll get my things in order. Heres to hoping, I guess. Stay tuned.
